No accomodations available for mental health

My disabilities include not only mental health but physical as well I don't have one specific diagnosis that considers me disabled it's a combination of them for example I suffer with severe anxiety depression bipolar PTSD multiple personality disorder suicidal ideation My physical health this is just to list a few I just had my fifth spinal fusion for multidisc degeneration spondylothesis ridiculopathy of lumbar region when I had severe pain because of my back problems it would automatically trigger my depression it would either trigger my suicidal ideation or it would trigger PTSD so it's a combination of my disabilities that I deal with everyday I can't just contact an ADA coordinator and ask them to help me with specific accommodations because no one has seemed to be able to do that there is no set accommodation that someone like me can ask for I've come into contact with some pretty complex agencies dealing with them and complaints has been one of the hardest things I've ever had to do when I request ADA accommodations my main purpose and requesting it is because all I've ever asked for was to have someone there with me who can help me by slowing down by talking to me not at me or talking about me in third party I need someone to look at me use active listening repeat things a few times to me before I can comprehend it if they can honor and if they can provide interpreters for every language on earth why can't they provide someone to talk to me in basic English just slowing down the process this is become a nightmare for me I had been in the middle of complaints with several different banks I had been informed that I was a part of the Equifax data breach Samsung data breach T-Mobile Sprint data breach Boulder neurological spine center data breach panorama eye Center data breach you can imagine what one data breach can do to someone's life I had all of these affecting me money draining out of my accounts my accounts being misused my insurance which is Colorado Access Medicaid or Health first Colorado I don't even know anymore someone was using my benefits to get transportation services that I needed desperately but I couldn't get them cuz someone else was getting them in my name My whole life has been turned upside down by these data breaches fraud identity theft and not one person can help me communicate or be a go between for me when dealing with these agencies I follow the process to file complaints I follow step-by-step instructions that these agencies have in place for people to file grievances or complaint process they do not follow them when I get stuck and when I'm unable to understand or comprehend some of the process I reach out for ADA accommodations and I ask for accessibility assistance I get ignored I've gotten ignored by the courts every county I've gotten ignored by police stations the hardest one to comprehend as to why they won't provide me the services I'm asking for is our judicial system the court system they say that this is one of the places that disabled people come in contact with and it is true if you look at mental health and the judicial system there's a huge problem but no one's understanding I'm trying to explain what that problem is and how it's affecting me and they're not listening when I send in a request for accommodations to have someone like a mental health advocate come with me or be appointed to me their response was this

“ You can get approved for your family member to come in and sit with you and talk to you but they cannot give you any legal advice and they cannot direct you in the legal proceedings but we can improve a family member to go be with you”

First of all this is a court process My family can be there with me regardless I don't need one appointed and if they can't give me any legal advice and they can't give me any information related to the court case what would be the point of having them do anything and that's what they left it at I explained the detail what I needed I explained how I process information I explained how I'm missing deadlines to appeal my case reconsideration paperwork getting sent in I needed help and I went through specific ADA coordinators they did nothing Right now I don't even know what the status is of my emotions that I filed by myself the ADA coordinators told me they submitted them all to the courts like contacted the courts the courts never got anything and these are coordinators that are supposed to be helping these aren't just people on the street these are people who are designated coordinators for the ADA in our judicial system not one not two not three but four separate coordinators failed to provide me any assistance I don't know where my case stands at this point but this is not only with the courts I requested department of motor vehicle to appoint me accommodations I was specific in what I needed I asked for help they did not provide it as a matter of fact they too told me that I could find somebody on my own to go with me they're not understanding people that I know on my own are just regular citizens they don't have training they don't have background they don't have what it is that takes for me to understand what's going on I keep getting told that they don't offer these services to people with mental health well my concern is why when someone is going through such complex systems and trying to deal with these type of places why can't I get the assistance that everybody else can get especially when it comes to just repeating things to me just slowing down and just talking to me I can't comprehend when things are going too fast I can comprehend when things are rushed and especially when they're speaking in languages like the legal system they're talking about me not to me and when I tried to bring up my mental health issues they send me for competency evaluations if that has nothing to do with it and nothing's been done about this I was convicted of crimes that I was innocent of but because I couldn't get a mental health advocate with me I'm stuck here on probation now having to go through another complex system when I should have been able to have the proper legal representation but because my attorney didn't understand what I was needing and she wouldn't provide me with any place or anybody that would help me to get the accommodations I needed now I sit here with charges that I was innocent of but because I tried to appeal it and because I tried to do reconsideration and I tried to fight it none of the paperwork was ever submitted to the courts from the ADA coordinators I had no possible way to get back and forth to court I was confined to a bed after having five spine surgeries that I couldn't get up I got put in jail for non-compliance because they said I had UA's that were coming up positive which I did I was on over 13 different medications but they forgot to submit all of my medication list too the appropriate lab so therefore I was put in jail for non-compliance I was on pretrial for almost 2 years without even being convicted but I still I followed the procedures I did what I had to do it was their mistakes that kept getting me in more trouble I requested ADA accommodations from them too pretrial whether it was bold print whether it was a mental health advocate whether it was somebody slowing down to talk to me not at me and help me to understand the proceedings that's going on I couldn't get any of it today My suicidal ideation has been constant I constantly think how it would be better off but at this point in time something needs to be done and I don't want anything other than I want to answer as to why I couldn't get these accommodations and why I'm sitting here in a position to have to report to people and places who can't even provide me accommodations under ADA but sit there and put me as non-compliant and get me in more trouble because they can't provide me the accommodations instead I'm looked at as if I don't know what I'm talking about people make fun of me by sending me emails saying that I don't know what it is exactly I'm trying to say I've asked to be communicated by phone I even got discriminated against at housing they put me to the end of the list when I came up on the waiting list after 3 years and because I asked for ADA accommodations to help me fill out the paperwork by phone no one would provide that I wouldn't have asked but I had just had two corneal transplants and I lost my vision so when I was asking for help to answer the questions by phone and they wouldn't provide it they canceled out my application and put me to the bottom of the list I filed complaints with HUD department of Justice civil rights no one's ever done anything about it and this goes for not only myself but my family my father's going through the same thing right now I've asked for accommodations for him because he was put on life support his home was taken in a reverse mortgage scam and do you think they offered any of us any accommodations to be able to navigate such complex places no they did not so I'm still here thinking that I'm never ever going to get help if I ever have problems which is what it's been in January of 2017 I was approved for non-emergency medical transportation services under Health first Colorado Medicaid they provided one ride to me after I submitted over $170 ride requests to appointments I was supposed to be being in front of a doctor in person every other day because of my health condition in the seriousness of it I could not get to my appointments because they would never show up or they would never come with no reason why I found out later on I went on to the portal to request more rides and I found out that they documented they gave me every single ride to my appointment when they did not I filed fraud I reported it they promised to give me mileage reimbursement for the problems and for not providing me assistance they never did they started blocking my emails this was dealing with the department of Health Care policy financing weld County human services My doctors were even involved they were submitting ride requests for me sending faxes and still never got a ride to the doctors That's how I ended up losing my eye and also that's how I ended up having to have five spine surgeries instead of just the first two because I couldn't get to my appointments to be followed up with The screws came loose in my back from one of the spinal fusions causing adjacent Segway disease if I could have gotten back to my doctor to do the x-rays they would have been able to see how much gap was due because of this loosening of the screws I could have prevented that that could have not ever happened I would have been able to walk properly today but because I asked for ADA accommodations I asked for someone to help me get these complaints underway because somebody was using my name but nobody was understanding what it was I was complaining about for a long time I put myself down for a long time I stayed isolated because I thought maybe I'm not communicating properly maybe I'm not using the right words maybe my sentences are sounding ridiculous because of my mental health and most of the time they were I rely on text to speech and screen readers because it's too hard for me to see with one eye details on my phone so when I use screen readers or text to speech my words come out jumbled or mixed and instead people laugh at me because of it there's no possible way to get help from these places and believe me I spent 5 years trying the conditions and the situations have only escalated and gotten worse in my life and continue to get worse I wish someone would step in and help no attorneys will even make themselves available to me I've tried going through local agencies I've tried going through the legal offices the legal clinics I've tried going through advocates I've tried going through the senator the mayor everybody no one's done nothing about it it's scary and it's sad because at this point in time I dread waking up everyday because if there's a problem that I have to face as a disabled person I already know there's no help out there no matter what my problem is no matter how big it is or how small it is I already know The answer to my question or the answer to my request for ADA accommodations with any place is going to be nothing they're going to tell me they cannot provide it to me I have to find it on my own that's hard when you don't know how you don't know where to begin and you don't understand what they're even saying I have no support even with this letter even with sharing my story which I've done multiple times nothing gets done about it maybe by sharing my story it'll help someone in the future but what am I supposed to do in my case right now I'm suffering tremendously I don't want to be here I don't want to be alive if I can't get the help that I need what's the point it means I have to navigate this life I still have a good 50 years ahead of me but if I have to sit here with the thoughts of never being able to get help because it's not offered or because there's no resources I can't walk around this earth problem free so what happens what happens when something else comes and I need help I'm a good person I don't ask for much I've helped people all my life and when I finally got disabled myself not one person has been there not one person has done anything to step up and help me and it's not like I ask for a lot but when you lose your eyesight and when you lose your ability to walk it takes a toll on not only your body but your mental health but no place deals with mental health disabilities and believe me if anybody were to contact me or reach out to me I promise you if you ask me if I contacted so-and-so or if you try to refer me to some specific place I've already been there and I've already done that That's what makes it hard when you reach out to all the places who are supposed to be set up and designed for my specific problems but they don't do anything about it that's when you just giv

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